Its not my fault,but i will say sorry.

Why sometimes we need to say sorry eventhough its not our faults?i hate it when i need to be the one to apologize the way its not me whom started a fight.sometimes love is realy unfair.I love you more than myself so i can easily drop down myself to the level and ask for a sorry just to end the dark mood.I cant accept the fact that im pulling down my level because im afraid to loose you.e'm i that stupid to do that silly things?looks like your the only man in this world and i need to lock you up in my arms so cant flew away.do i feel that if i loose my life will stop and end?why cant i tell myself that i still have a family i owned and its not the end of the world for me if youre gone?SHIT LIFE!!!why do i love you so much when i can see clearly that youre being so selfish and immature?DAMN...i think im a FOOL.

I PROMISE.

PROMISE...they say its a very serious and important words you must say.Once you say it you need to be responsible enough to do as you say.Some also say that because of promises it can destroy a friendship,a relationship and a life.I dont think if im just being so paranoid but i always intendt to say "i promise" and after that it bothers me a lot.Afraid what it can cause me if i failed a promise?Afraid to loose a friend,afraid to loose a special someone and afraid to loose my life because of a promise.But sometimes people are so insensitive they might not even think of a situation or a reason why sometimes promises are made to be broken and why promises have no boundaries and have to second chance.Now im thinking if i have to say "honey,i promise i will be loving you forever untill the death of me".What if i broke that promise and find myself that i stood and stopped loving you?will i loose my self then?Thats a BIG QUESTION now.

I dreamed...

last night in my dream....

It was a best dream i ever had.We were at the beach holding hands together while we were in a wedding suite attire.We were walking in a white sand beach alone together with no people around and sharing sweet thoughts and exchanging plans,dreams and hopes for our future.How i wish that someday we can have our wedding church....who knows it will happen....soon....very soon....